Colors And Lights

There was one time when I was one desparate girl who was trying to get into this I.T. Industry.

All I had was one goal to work for top notch I.T Giants. I loved playing with technology.

Finally I cracked that. I have been there and done that. Now being part of the system now I know what all happens inside I.T. The systems here and the crap work sometime that comes your way makes me sulk big time.

Despite of everything that I had to do to make a position here; today I don’t seem to enjoy what I am doing. I need a change. The I.T. as such does not seem to be attract me any more. I still do love technologies.

I have been looking for things that could motivate me. Nope I don’t want the self motivation and fundas. The bottom line is NOTHING IS EXCITING ME.

The questions keep haunting my mind these days -

Do I need a break ?

Do I need to sit back and relax for a while instead of getting worked up like this ?

What is that I would love to do ?

I am unable to figure out “That something different” I want to do !!

This scares hell out of me.

In the process I don’t want to land up in not doing anything or being failure in all I would try my hands at !!

Starting from scratch is okay with me ; but it should have tempo to keep me going.

How do I figure out what exactlly I want to do ?

Am I being wierd by thinking like this ?

Is is sheer stupidity to think of something else when you have a decently paid job ?

Am I being abnormal ?

Does anyone else goes through this ?